End of the Year

Like, OH EM GEE. Its the end of the year!! About 15 days left to go of school!! =]

As much as this year sucked, with all the friend drama, the myspace mishap (long story short, got a myspace, wasn't allowed, got caught, and was grounded for a month), and some other stupid crap, I'm gonna miss this year. I mean, I met some great people and got closer to friends. I've had the best teachers ever! I won't I'll ever forget them. I'll never forget anyone.

Anyways, I've got a bunch of finals to take. EH. But, thankfully, I'm gonna be prepared. Like, we are taking a bunch of notes and stuff in Ms. L class, which is totally preparing me for the final. She told us its gonna be hard. And in history, we have TWO finals to take. One for the county and one for Mr.C's class. But he's taking the grade from the best test and putting that as our final grade. LIFESAVER. I also have the Spanish final, but I'm not too worried. I just have to study all my notes from the past TWO YEARS. Yea, thats gonna be fun. Haha. I have a study guide, too.

And in these last weeks, we're gonna have Sex Ed. That's gonna be fun.<--(SARCASM) But, I'm thinking about how funny its gonna be with Ms.T, my science teacher. She's so funny. I love her. Science was a lot easier this year than last year. I also wonder how the guys in our class are gonna take the whole Sex Ed. I hope they won't be immature. I don't want to have to tell anyone off. ;-]

OK, I'm gonna be totally random, and go on another subject: Myspace. So, here's the story about Myspace. I wasn't allowed to have a myspace, but I really wanted one. Like EVERYONE has one. I gave into peer pressure. Bad me! Anyway, I made one. I had it for about a month. Myspace was really great. But then my dad found pictures that were saved on the family computer from Myspace! I have no idea how they got there. They were like pictures of other people! Well, he asked me what they were, and, because I had so much guilt about keeping it a secret from them, I broke down and told them about the Myspace. My parents were so mad. A bunch of drama happened, and I was grounded for a month, from EVERYTHING.

Well, being grounded wouldn't have bothered me that much. I didn't have a cellphone (I dropped it in the toilet a little while before. Oops), I didn't have an iPod, a camera, and I don't go out much with anyone. All I got taken away was my laptop, and my internet privelages were taken away (look at my first post), except when I need it for school. BUT, the month that this happened and the month they decided to ground me was DECEMBER. The month of Christmas and fun festivities. So, of course, the month that should have been great, socially, was a total bummer. No shopping trips with friends, no parties, no ANYTHING. But, I did go to Chicago with my parents after Christmas (a total surprise) and I got a camera and an iPod. So I was pretty OK.

So, why am I talking about this? Well, tonight, I presented my parents "my case" about Myspace. But this time I did the right thing and talked to them before I did anything. Well, actually, I talked to my mom first, who was so cool and trusted me and said I could get one, but my Dad has to make the final decision. She kind of prepped him for my "case", which I presented to him. He told me he couldn't make a decision on a whim and said he had to think it over. I was like "Cool. OK" and came here to post. I'm really nervous, because I won't know for like a week because he's going on a business trip. EH, teenage drama.

I'm going to watch this debate tonight on Nightline. Its between Christians and Atheists about the exsistence of God. It's gonna be really good.

Until next time! Tata

Sparta

I am listening to Sparta, an incredibly cool band, and I want to share something. In one of their songs, "Crawl", the artists sings:

The difference between

finding what you love

and loving what you found

is killing us right now.

Just something I thought you'd like to think about. =] Arrivederci

Friends

Another long gap between posts. Sorry.

I've been thinking about friends lately. Well, I've also been having issues with some of them. Eight grade is a big turning point for kids, I'm discovering. We are trying to find "who we are", in a sense. I've made many friends I never thought I would be friends with, and I've lost friends in situations that hurt me to no end.

I have a friend who I fight with, a lot, it seems. I don't know what to do. Every fight we've had, and blown off, have stored up between us like a ticking time bomb until it recently exploded and now there's nothing left but pieces of the friendship we once had. The pain I feel creeps into my heart and spreads, like a disease. Everything is really difficult.

And this hasn't just happened to me once. Its happened multiple times, in different ways. I sometimes feel like I can't be close friends with someone, especially when they promise they will always be there for me. I've decided that this is what close friendships is like for me. Its like getting shot at by someone. The closer you get to that person, who has a gun, the more likely you are going to get shot, to get hurt.

But, as I think about all the friends I have who I don't fight with and get along great with, I feel a sense of gratitude, because they keep me together and whole, while everything else trys to pull me apart. I know I can't just stop having friends completely. That would be pointless. I can't just stop trusting and stop being friends with people. I guess I just have to grin and bear through all the pain I feel with others, and live my life with the people who are my true homies. =P

I understand if all this confuses you. Believe me, I don't even understand the thoughts in my head sometimes.

Update

Wow, I haven't been on here in a while. Some updates:

A horribly tragic shooting has occurred at Virgina Tech Cho Seung-Hui. He killed 33 and injured 12. Everyone is completely devastated. =[ I couldn't believe someone could be so cold. From what I know, Cho was a loner and an outcast, and he was disturbed, which people came to know after he wrote morbid plays for his class.


On a lighter note, we are reading To Kill A Mockingbird in class. =] A classic and great book. This is the second time I have read it and probably won't be my last because it's so goo the help of Ms.L, I've seen a lot of stuff in that's buried deep in the book that I didn't see before.

I need to start posting on here again. I really like to but I forget. =/ Like my little faces? Aren't they cute? =] Don't like them? Tough.

I'm gonna go work on another post. Tootles

Britney Spears Shaves Head

Everyone LOVES a little gossip. So here's the scoop! Britney Spears couldn't stand having the world turn their attention away from her after Anna Nicole Smith collapses and dies on February 8 in the Seminole Hardrock Cafe in Hollywood, FL. So she shaves her head and gets new tattoos.


I think she has gone to a major extreme! I've had enough of her
5-minute marriages and baby fumbles! She needs to go to rehab and get herself together! I wonder what will happen next with this crazy woman!

Wow! I haven't posted in a while. Not like anyone really comes and takes part. Haha! =]

Last semester, I had a C in science and I wanted to bring it up so I was ecstatic when I saw that I finally brought my grade up to an A and I worked so hard to keep it at that, but, recently, I got a bad grade on a test and the grade went back down. It's so discouraging to see the grade on pinnacle and I just want to give up! I feel like I've worked and studied for nothing and it just stresses me out.

On a lighter note, FCAT Writes went pretty well. I was given an easy prompt and I used what I learned in Language Arts to organize my essay, though I was really nervous and I know I could have done better because there is always room for improvement. How do you think you did?

Uh-Oh! The FCAT!

Happy New Year!! I hope everyone had a great vacation!!! :)

When I got to school today, the first thought in my mind was, "So when is spring break?" Now that requirements for high school and college are changing, the FCAT and everything else has me more nervous than ever! Not only that, I am thinking about applying to a magnet school.

I keep wondering how some kids can do school and homework and still have time for sports and other extra-curricular activities! Atleast I have friend I can talk about it with. I also like to read and get lost in other people's troubles for a little while.

I was hoping someone had something they do to keep themselves relaxed under stress. Any tips?